英语翻译I gave my youth to the sea and I came home and gave her

英语翻译
I gave my youth to the sea and I came home and gave her my old age FROM THIS SENTENCE ,i LEARN FROM WHAT IS THE MEANING OF LIFE ,SOMETIMES ,I LOOK BACK HIM AND HIS WORD WHICH IS RIGHT BUT IT IS LATE WHEN I REALISED ALL THINGS ,I WANG TO CHANG MYSELF ,BUT I CANNOT DO IT FOREVER .i HAD KEPT MY MIND TO FORGTH EVERYTHING ,BUT I ALSO CANNOT DO IT .I DONOT KNOW MY RIGHT HAND FROM MY LEFT I WANT TO HIT THE SACK AND GET SOME Z'S .
I FEEL I AM A FAILURE GIRL .THIS IS A SIMPLE TEST ,WHY DO I CATCH A CHANCE AND LET IT LEAVE ME ALONE I WANT TO CRY AND BEAT MYSELF .THIS TIME FAILURE IN ABILITY OR QUALIFY ,I CANNOT FIND A GOOD REASON TO MAKE ME COMFORTABLE IIIIIIIII REALLY WANT TO PASS THI* **AMINATION ,BUT CAN I
LOVE HIM IS MY FOULT I WANT TO FORGET HIM ,BUT IT ISNOT AN EASY THING SOMETIMES,I DESICEED TO LEAVE HIM ,FOR I KNOWN HE DOESNOT LOVE ME I FEEL THAT ME HEART IS BLEEDING .I DONOT KNOW WHAT IS TURE LOVE UNTIL THE FIRST TIME I MET HIM .MOW ,WHEN EVENYTHING IS PASSED,
DO I NEED TO LOOK BACK I DONOT KNOE MY CHOICE IS WRONG OR RIGHT I ONLY WANG TO HAVE A TRUE LOVE
I WANT TO GIVE HIM UP ,BUT I SEEMS TO HAVE A FEW RELUTANT I DONOT KNOE HE CAN LET ME HAVE A SECURE PLANCE TO LIVE THE REST OF MY LIFE .THAT IS TO SAY ,

我把青春都给了大海,等到回家后又给了她我的暮年.
从这句话,我学到了什么是生命的意义.有时候,我回首看他和他的话,都很对.
但等我意识到这些的时候已经晚了.我想要改变我自己,但我永远做不到了.我曾经试着把每一件事都忘掉,但我也做不到了.从左手,我不认识我的右手（不太明白）,我只想打打沙袋再睡一在觉.
我感觉我是个失败的女孩.这是个简单的测验,为什么我抓住个机会然后又让它离我而去!我想哭,想打我息.这次在能力与资格（考试）的失败,我找不出任何说得过去的原因.我真的很想通过这次拍摄,但是我能吗?
我想放弃他了,但我好象又有点不情愿,我不知道他能否给我个安全的地方让我度过余生.也说是说...